About my name

Hai. Aku lagi gabut di plazman nungguin gh ttd nota dan beliau lagi rapat, trus aku disuruh nunggu sampe doi kelar jadi aku nulis aja ya.

Barangkali ada di antara kalian pembaca yang ga asing dengan salah satu bagian dari namaku. Iya, emang namaku mirip nama aslinya Maudy Ayunda, tapi bukan itu :/ (maudya faza loh mirip kan wkwk).

I’ve been living with a name of prayer, and it pains me how it’s still far from happening.

Nama ini pemberian dari pakdeku, mungkin kalian tau Cak Nun. Beliau tipe yang suka sama nama-nama berbau jawa tapi entah kenapa pas ortu minta dibikinin nama, dapetnya full arab gini. Bayangin aja, nama anaknya Sabrang Mowo Damar Panuluh. Susah wkwk. Makanya mas sabrang sampe minta dipanggil Noe aja pas dulu kuliah di Canada, lidah orang sana ga sip nyebut kata sabrang, eh trus kebawa sampe dia ngeband di Letto. Jembar juga kan jawa banget.

Um tapi setelah dipikir-pikir, namanya Haya arab deng. Mungkin pakde nun punya a certain fondness for Javanese wordings in naming male babies. Not sure.

Awalnya beliau sudah nyiapin nama-nama cowo, ortupun dulu berharap dapetnya laki. Tapi aku yang lahir. Dan pakde nun cuma ada satu stock nama netral. Gitu deh asal muasalnya.

Tapi lebih dalam lagi, arti nama ini sering bikin aku tiba-tiba nangis kalo keinget, ya di samping akunya yang emang cengeng.

Audia Faza Intifada.

Do you have your guess?

Kalau ibu dulu sering cerita, dia bilang artinya “kemenangan pasukan berani mati di antara dua lembah”.

Ya memang itu sih.

If you’ve looked up latest history of the middle east, you must be familiar with intifada.

The uprising of Palestinian against Israeli occupation of West Bank and Gaza (this refers to the First Intifada). You can look up the rest in google, just type intifada (kalau belum tau).

Sehari setelah ulangtahunku kemarin, breaking news dimana-mana soal peresmian U.S. Embassy di Jerusalem yang berbarengan sama meninggalnya banyak protesters di perbatasan Gaza. Ya kalian pasti udah liat foto ivanka yang viral.

I know there are many fact checks about what actually is going on in palestine. Bahwa hamas ngebayar warga sipil untuk nyerang border even though they know it only result in deaths. Reasoning yang dipake untuk me”rasional”kan tindakan ini ya jihad, selain itu ada reward berupa uang yang lumayan. Mestinya ini valid info but my point tho: Palestinians are defenseless and what do you expect from people who have no choice but fight for their land? I don’t support current hamas governing decisions, hell no. But what can the world do to help end this misery?

Sedih gak sih lu pas hari ultah pagi-pagi malah ada berita bom di negara sendiri. Mau tidur ada berita bom lagi. Besoknya lagi. Trus ditambah tentang Palestine. Mau naik busway aja jadi parno yang engga-engga walaupun akhirnya tetap naik dan aman.

Yak si bapak sudah ttd nota dan ku bisa balik ke kantor. Bye everyone. Stay safe and happy ramadhan.

On race events: merely hyping or else?

In continuation of my recent interest in the scope of race events, I came to a stand point where I decided to not hype up too much on every single incoming event. I’ve always enjoyed running since ages, even when I was asked to fill questionnaires about my favorite sport, I’d make sure if I can write running as mine (aside from badminton). There was also this novel (adapted into a movie too) I read in my nerdy years probably in junior high school about a group of best friends sharing one particular jeans everybody loves, where one of the character was a mad-runner. She’d run miles everyday just because it makes her feel good. It releases her pain, emotion, and even though it doesn’t solve her problems, it still helps her be at ease. I kind of adore her and she might be part of my running hobby reasons.

Meanwhile these recent years, marathon has been massively hyped up all over the world, most certainly because everybody can participate and it doesn’t require talent; only some good strength and resilience whom anyone with normal physical state can practice their ass off. Whilst in case of becoming an athlete who competes to win the first place, surely it would require load of essential factors but let’s not discuss that. Seeing so many race events in town which held every week and even at one venue there could be several different events taking place altogether –got me thinking about it from different perspective.

In general, they would charge participants to pay for a certain amount of money which vary between IDR 100k up to 500k (or higher). The race pack provided wouldn’t cost as much as the registration fee (of course!) so I assumed they would allocate the remaining collected sum for prizes, organizers, venue, and probably just that? Man, I’m in no capacity to accuse them as scams but I doubt some of them aren’t. They can enjoy some huge part of the collected fund by making sure to make very efficient calculation for the whole event. And my concern? I hate funding people on things I can’t obtain its transparency. Cause honestly speaking, why would us?

I may sound spiteful but that’s just the way I cope with uncertain things most of the time. (So probably I’m a spiteful woman???) What I learned from this whole mess was that my genuine value is about enjoying the run itself. I can optimize this hobby by running regularly without having the urge to join any race events here and there every fucking week. Yet I have a goal though, to participate in the most prestigious marathon in the world just because it feels like a whole different experience and it’s totally worth it, at least for me?? Don’t get me wrong ladies and gentlemen, it ain’t easy to be accepted as a participant in a world class marathon so all I can do for the time being is making running as a habit and carefully tracking the progress (better yet, arranging my run schedule). This sounds much more fun than joining the gym scam! O-o-p-s.3gp